He can handle it..

When Warren and I moved from the farm to the rental house, I have to admit, I didn’t spend time with Jesus like I should. Sure, I would read a devotion from time to time, I would pray daily, go to church, but I was numb. We were facing a lot of changes and honestly I was sad, dare I say, even a little mad. Things still weren’t turning out quite like I thought they would. I was venting to a friend a couple years ago on how I was mad at God and even did not talk to Him very nicely in a emotionally filled prayer, her response was “He can handle it.” Simple as that, and duh, of course He can. Who am I kidding, He knew I was mad before the hateful words left my lips. He wants me to cry out to Him. Which brings me to this blog today. In the wee hours this morning I was sipping coffee with my lap full of devotionals and my Bible. Warren still sleeping, the sun had not even come up yet and I thought to myself, wow have I needed this. The last couple of weeks, I have finally began to, on a regular basis, spend that good quality time with Him. Truly seeking Him. He has shown me in many ways all along that He is there and He hears me. He’s been calling on me since the move. And though I haven’t set aside time like this as I should, He makes Himself known to me. He still seeks me out and gives me those gentle nudges. Not until this past month had I seen an eagle since the move and that had gotten me down. I prayed I would see one, it took some time, but on our way to school one day there was one in the road. Had to put my brakes on, God made sure I saw that one. HAHA! And then this past weekend, I saw another sitting in a tree. Just there, like God saying, I hear you hun. They still amaze me each time I see one. I may not know where God is leading me to but I am trying my best to trust Him with it. Some things do not make sense to me whatsoever but I know He loves me and wants what is best for me even if I don’t quite understand. Gosh, if He takes the time to send an eagle my way, I would say He has a handle on the bigger stuff too. 😉 Bottom line, all I truly need is Him. He sees me, He hears me, He is using all of this to mold me to be more like Him. I am very thankful for His patience and love for me. And if all of this is for just one person to come to know Him, it has been worth it.