There was Jesus…

Are you like me and become completely overwhelmed to the point of tears as you experience God’s love for you? What an amazing feeling it is. I’ll be honest, I haven’t always comprehended His love. Maybe I never will completely until I see Him face to face. Before I was saved and even as a “young Christian”, I struggled with fully understanding, believing, or accepting it.  I still have days where I pray and ask Him to show me He loves me, when I do I always think of that old book “Are you there God, it’s me Margaret”. haha

As I look back over the past 5 years, I tell people it has been the hardest yet best 5 years of my life. 2016 was a year of heartache that I never thought I’d make it out of. One heartbreak after the other seemed to occur with no end in sight. I remember telling a friend, “I never knew you could hurt so much for all different reasons all at the same time.” I had nowhere to look but up. God carried me through, and still does. I can look back at that horrible year and say I am thankful because in those trials there was Jesus. I learned how to allow Him to carry me and be my strength. On my own I couldn’t do it and I still can’t. Isn’t that the point though?? We need Him! We weren’t put on this earth to endure it alone. We need Jesus. He is our hope, not the things of this world. This world is temporary. Eternity is in Jesus. I can look back now and say I have learned that and it has made me so much stronger and my relationship with Him has completely changed. My view of Him and understanding of His love is much clearer.

The new song There was Jesus by Zach Williams featuring Dolly Parton says it all:

Every time I try to make it on my own
Every time I try to stand, I start to fall
And all those lonely roads that I have traveled on
There was Jesus
When the life I built came crashing to the ground
When the friends I had were nowhere to be found
I couldn’t see it then but I can see it now
There was Jesus
In the waiting, in the searching
In the healing, in the hurting
Like a blessing buried in the broken pieces
Every minute, every moment
Where I’ve been or where I’m going
Even when I didn’t know it
Or couldn’t see it
There was Jesus
For this man who needs amazing kind of grace
For forgiveness and a price I couldn’t pay
I’m not perfect so I thank God every day
There was Jesus
There was Jesus
In the waiting, in the searching
In the healing, in the hurting
Like a blessing buried in the broken pieces
Every minute, every moment
Where I’ve been or where I’m going
Even when I didn’t know it
Or couldn’t see it
There was Jesus
On the mountains
In the valleys
There was Jesus
In the shadows
Of the alleys
There was Jesus
In the fire, in the flood
There was Jesus
Always is and always was, oh
No, I never walk alone
Never walk alone
You’re always there
In the waiting, in the searching
In the healing, in the hurting
Like a blessing buried in the broken pieces
Every minute, every moment
Where I’ve been or where I’m going
Even when I didn’t know it
Or couldn’t see it..There was Jesus

In the darkest part of my hardest year, my best friends showing up at my door with freezer meals, ready to clean and do my laundry … there was Jesus.

The card from my sister with a keychain in it that said “You are so loved” showing up in my mailbox… there was Jesus.

The friends and family that relentlessly check on me and Warren even still… there is Jesus.

A stranger making a sweet gesture to show love to my son…there’s Jesus.

The ability to stay home and raise my son despite the circumstances and be more than taken care of…there is Jesus.

An encouraging note slipped to me quietly on my hard days…there’s Jesus.

The grace and love my little boy shows me each day…there is Jesus.

Unexpected provisions …there is Jesus.

The compassion people have shown towards me and my son…there is Jesus.

I could go on and on…and on…. but I am betting you get the point. I wish I could sit here and list all the names of people that touched me and Warren’s life in some way. To all of you, I pray you know how much it has meant to us and how it has helped move us forward. Thank you and know you are truly loved.

& most of all, thank you Jesus..

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