I wrote a blog a little while ago entitled Trust. Hope. Wait. At the time, I truly believed God had me waiting on someone specific. I am guilty of taking things very literal at times, I have made things that the Lord has asked me to do bigger in my mind than what He intended. One example, before I cared much for contemporary Christian music, I remember feeling led to sing. “What, Lord? You want me to stand up and sing in front of everyone?!?!” I laugh now because He just wanted me to sing, to Him, period. Worship, praise..etc… I overthought it and I’ll be honest, I struggled with a lot of anxiety because of it. Fast forward, I am still guilty of doing this sort of thing. This time, in reference to that blog, He asked me to wait, period. On HIM! He knows the desire of my heart is to one day remarry and have a family. I have prayed for this and asked Him to bring that someone into my life. I have chosen in the past and I have chose wrong. I pray He leads me into that with the right person when the time is right and so He has commanded me to wait. Wait on Him to make it happen. For me to stop worrying, wondering, thinking I need to be doing something to make it happen and trust Him with it.
I prayed one day that He would make it clear to me if I was on the wrong path with who I thought I was supposed to be waiting for; that same day He revealed some important info to me and made it clear, that was not the right path. I confided in a friend about it and was saying that I got it all wrong, but how? Her response was, “It’s ok to be wrong, this is how we learn discernment.” With a sigh of relief, it was like a weight lifted off of me. Duh, I pray for discernment all the time, of course He is going to give me situations where I have to learn it.
I am doing my best to not try and figure it all out. To have faith while I wait. Trusting and placing my hope in Him.
But those who trust in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
Trust. Hope. WAIT….