“Man you oughta see her fly!!” How many of you were singing that as you read it and now have that song stuck in your head? HA! Martina sure can belt it out. This song has been an inspiration to me during some of my down days. Actually, several songs have been. You will notice some of the titles of my blogs are song lyrics. As Miranda Lambert says, “Music is medicine” and it truly is. When I hear the chorus to Martina’s, Broken Wing, I feel so much encouragement. I have suffered a “broken wing”, but I do keep my eye on the sky. Letting go of the dreams of what I thought was supposed to be and getting excited for what God’s plan is for me and my son’s future.
God tells me He has plans to give me hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11) At times, I focus too much on my circumstances and not on what God can do or what He is already doing. I have to remember to look up and keep my “eyes on the sky”. Some of the desires He has given me seem out of reach or even impossible. Honestly, they are, in my own abilities and in my own strength, but through Him all things are possible. (Luke 1:37) He is beginning to open doors for me and I am moving forward, slowly but surely. I still have the desire to stay home and for my role as “Mama” to be my main priority. The fact that I have been able to continue that role even after the divorce I thought would be impossible. But God made it possible.
Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us, to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever, Amen!”
Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.
These two verses were confirmation of an opportunity God provided me with recently. An opportunity to get back out into the workforce, around people, back in the same environment as I worked in before I decided to quit my job and stay home. This opportunity is truly a miracle to me. One of my biggest worries is having to miss out on stuff with my son. I know he needs his Dad, but even that time away is hard for me because it’s not how it was supposed to be. This is one reason divorce is so hard, the reality of the broken home. Things we should be doing as a family is now being done separately and it is hard. Especially the way it affects the children. But here we are, it is our reality. To add a job to that would take more time away from one another and that’s been a fear of mine. The Lord has blessed me with ways of making money from home since the divorce. For that I am thankful. As those have come and gone I have prayed that He would provide me with a job one day that would be flexible so that my role as “Mama” could still take priority. This past week He did just that. To beat all, I am going to be working on the days he is already with his dad!! How amazing is that! This job is temporary and part time but even if it is only for a season, He is opening a door for me and I am walking through it.
Keeping my eyes on the sky……I am trusting the next chapter because I know the Author. (Totally stole that from a shirt I saw today haha!)